A mother's LOVE is BIG

No weekend post for two weeks in a row because the very reason why we look forward to weekends is away from us. A week and some days without Maden with us breaks my heart so bad. I feel so incomplete, I feel like my system is bugged down. 

And so, to feed my loneliness and depression, I wrote a letter to my baby girl, hoping she would read this five to ten years from now and know how much I truly love her.
So goes the letter:

Dear Maden,
I still remember the day your Daddy and I found out that we are having a baby, our eyes glittered and our hearts jumped with delight! We didn't knew it was you, yet, we took care of you. I sacrificed everything for you. I gave up my full- time job because the doctor asked me if I could have a complete bedrest for three months. I quit smoking, I stopped drinking liquors and neglected all 'night-out texts' from friends. I thank God for everytime I throw up because I don't like the flavor of the food. It means you want me to eat something different and healthy. 
I remember your first ultrasound, Daddy and I were teary eyed because for the first time, we heard your heart beat which means you're alive! The second one, it was only me and Mamita because Daddy went to UK for work. I was so excited to tell daddy that you were formed already! The third, we tried everything we could but you're sleeping inside. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. Come the fourth ultrasound, Mama can't sleep well because I was excited to know if you're a girl or a boy. When the doctor said it was a girl, my heart skipped a beat. My tears burst with happiness because I know that it's gonna be you! 
Came the day that you were born, Mama had a very hard time with labor. Mama was crying of labor pains but I know that it's you wanting to come out, so I embraced it with all my heart. You see, you made Mama strong. When you came out of Mama's womb, I kissed you despite the blood on your forehead. That day, you made me the happiest person in the world. You made me proud of myself. You gave me the happiness that nobody can take away from me.
During the times that Mama can't sleep in the middle of the night because you were crying, you brought out the "superhero" in me. You taught me that PATIENCE is indeed a virtue. 
And as you grow, I am proud to say that I was there when you first smiled, you first laughed, you first crawled, you first spoke and I want you to know that I am looking forward for more "firsts" from you. 
As I hold your hand in mine, I feel like I'm the queen of the world. As I kiss you, I feel like I'm not alone. As I hug you everytime you cry and say "MAMA", you made me feel that I'm special and loved. 
I don't care if I don't have friends around me now, having you is more than having a bestfriend. You are my love, my bestfriend and my life.
Someday, when I get old, I ask you to be very patient to me. If I repeat the same thing a million times, please just listen to me.  Just remember that I also read the same story to you every single day and night. In the future when I don't wanna take a bath, please pardon me and don't embarass me. Remember, I sing to you everytime we ba- bath so you won't cry of cold bath. If ever I get so ignorant to new things in the future, be patient. Remember how patient I was putting you to bed, dressing you up, changing your diaper and cleaning your poos, etc. 
I want you to always remember what I taught you now and what I will teach you in the days, weeks, months and years to come. Always put in mind that a mother will never do anything to harm and hurt their children. You may hate me when the time comes but I would be thankful. It means I am doing my job. Remember, the people who speaks good things on you even if you're doing bad does not care for you and does not love you. And the person who corrects you and teaches you the right ones from the wrong ones are the people who loves you most.
There's a lot I would like to tell you in this letter, but I prefer to tell it you personally with all my heart so that you'd realize how sincere I am in bringing out the best in you.
Please always remember that you are my biggest achievement. You are the love of my life and Daddy's life. You are special so you should be a good girl now and always. 

With a big smile and huge love I've had for you, I Love You my wonderful daughter,
Mama ♥