Working and Mummying

Becoming a mother is the best feeling in the world. And for me, motherhood is the toughest job you'll love.

If you happen not to know me, I have been a hands-on mum to my 3 month old since day one. I do the juggling from the morning all through the wee hours of night. I'm the one who, even at my worst, wakes up when Maden is crying for milk. Or when she feels something bad (which thank heavens never did she got sick since day 1.)

I have been jobless for quite sometime. From the time we found out I'm pregnant up until I gave birth to Maden. Hubby and I have been the conventional type where the husband goes to work and the wife stays at home and takes care of the child. However, we both decided to stop that belief and I go back to work.

Actually, I work for a car company since early this year as a freelance consultant. But it's nearly two months that I am always out of work because I had to take care of my 3 month old. Hubby and I don't want her to grow up with a nanny so we were content of our current set up. Suffice to say, hubby's salary is enough for the three of us, however, there are bills on the way, groceries, "some wants", Maden's milk and monthly vaccination. We realized that as she grows, her needs grow as well. 

For the past months, since we moved to Cebu, Maden and I have spent our mommy-baby time together. Doesn't matter how and where. We often stay home and play with each other; I read books to her, sing to her and even dance to her. Sometimes, we go to the mall, do the groceries together and, though I look so desperate and half crazy talking to the person who does not even understand what I'm talking about. Still, my heart melts seeing her smile as she looks at me and "talks back" as if she is responding to me. These are the things that I would miss most but there's a lot of time for us. I will still watch and guide her as she grows. 

Some would not understand why I had to work full time as early as now. Others would say it's too early to go back to work yet. I did this not for myself but for my daughter so that I could provide her with all her needs. My weekend is free for her so on weekdays, I decided to catch her awake so I could still play with her and read her favorite bedtime stories. I believe my decision is a selfless act because what I'm doing is all for her. I know that I could still build the love and trust that I've built for her in 3 months. I am decided to dabble motherhood and work even if there is a prize that I had to pay. 

 

Happy Weekend!